Gloaming Crackle

Amandeep: wait so
isn’t “kinda i want to” sort of uh
specifically about being gay
Eric-Jon: Is it?
Amandeep: this just occurred to me
Eric-Jon: Wait, let me take a look at this.
Amandeep: i’m not sure of what i should do.
when every thought i’m thinking of is you.
all of my excuses turn to lies.
maybe God will cover up his eyes
Eric-Jon: Okay. Yeah, there’s some ambiguity about the pronouns and the exact naure of his transgression.
The simplest reading is… well, it’s an early version of Closer.
Actually.
From across the way?
Is he some kind of weird Rear Window stalker?
Amandeep: i mean, the thing is that there are all these weird FORBIDDEN LOVE kind of overtones
Eric-Jon: Sitting alone in his apartment, lusting after some woman across the way?
It’s really ambiguous.
Amandeep: actually
this could be from the perspective of like
a rapist or something
Eric-Jon: Yeah.
Amandeep: which is a much creepier reading
but seems equally valid
Eric-Jon: Stalker-rapist.
Amandeep: what’s the price i pay.
i don’t care what they say.
i want to.
Eric-Jon: Man.
Yeah.
I actually like that interpretation.
Though the gay one is interesting.
This is such an open-ended song.
“I want to do something transgressive! And I feel ambivalent about that!”
So many possibilities!
Amandeep: hahaha
Amandeep Jutla: “I want to do something transgressive! And I feel ambivalent about that!”
Eric-Jon: So let’s assume the stalker-rapist interpretation for the moment.
Eric-Jon: Now consider the early version of the song.
Amandeep: yeah
Sent at 4:40 PM on Thursday
Eric-Jon: That’s kind of a brilliant combination.
I’m going to just assume that’s what the song is about, specifically because that’s the original arrangement.